Every time I write out my medical “resume,” I am aware of the mess my human body is. I am reminded of its brokenness. I am reminded of its awkwardness. I am reminded of how others must negatively perceive me (not that it changes anything, as far as my health goes).
Today, was another one of those “this happens way too often” appointments. For the past few years, I have been on this hunt – to find a primary care doctor. One that won’t run away. One that is loving, knowledgeable, and possesses wonderful bed-side manners without looking down on me for one thing or another. These are the kind of people I like to surround myself with, not just with medical professionals (though it’s sorta mandatory to find these qualities in a primary doctor). Compassionate people who are willing to learn are always a blessing to have, and they make life much easier in the world of one with chronic illnesses.
The more health conditions one acquires, the more difficult this pursuit becomes.
Even though, today was another one of “those days”. God provided, like He always does. God has a tendency to do something to remind me… “You are not alone. You are okay. You will be okay. I am taking care of you.”
As I was walking up to my apartment’s door step, I discovered a new package idly waiting for me. One of my new books came, today. Jesus Always is providing some much needed encouragement tonight (affiliate link).
Looking forward to reading bits of this new devotional book, as I learn how to rest, rest, and yes rest.
“But a chronic difficulty can captivate your mind, taking over increasingly more of your mental activity. Becoming aware of this bondage is a huge step toward breaking free from it (October 10).”
While many things may profoundly affect my life, especially concerning my health, my thought life shouldn’t be affected. I am not talking “brain fog” here. In this, I am reminded that I can choose what I think about. I can choose what is continually on my mind.
I have a heavenly Father who knows my name and every single detail of my life.
I don’t have to settle, in my thought life. I don’t have to agonize day in and day out about what I am “going to do” or how I will “find a way out” of my current health mess. I can choose to allow Jesus Christ to be Lord over my thought life. While my chronic difficulties could take over my thought life, they don’t have to. I have a heavenly Father who knows my name and every detail of my life.
Now, that is something to celebrate. This is why I can have joy, even in the middle of a life afflicted by multiple chronic illnesses. I can choose Jesus and joy in His presence.
Prayerfully, I am seeking Jesus. He is and always has been my ever-present help! And, He still is on His throne holding me.
Until next time,
We break down every thought and proud thing that puts itself up against the wisdom of God. We take hold of every thought and make it obey Christ (2 Cor. 10:5, TLV).
** For more encouragement, take a few minutes and read Psalm 139**